It was about a year ago that I was nervously writing.  The assignment?  To write from the perspective of Jesus, the experience of the Cross, in the first person.


That sounds crazy right?  And it is.  We don't know what He went through, none of us.  Least of all me.

But there is something good about the meditation - as long as you don't take it farther than it was intended to go.  The larger project was the Stories of Sifted... and the idea was that saints and biblical leaders suffered in such a way as to bring about a redemptive good - either for themselves or for others (or both).  The idea was that suffering is something that God holds in His hands and that it isn't capricious.

Jesus took that a step further.  And it's an amazing notion.  He's not just overseeing suffering in a way that may make sense someday.  He embraced it Himself.  God took upon Himself lack.  He experienced pain.  He felt thirst.  And while I don't pretend to understand the Cross in the fullness of mystery, I do believe that He walked in our shoes, in some sense, literally.

In that heart, I set about the Stories as a meditation on emotion and nearness, to try to see these great moments of story through their eyes.  With actual fear, I set about the story of the Passion... my own words seeking to express the love of God firsthand.  So for Good Friday, as I Remember... here is the story of Jesus, sifted.

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It was one of those moments that happens, but your mind doesn't accept at first. I felt the sharp pain set in, and I felt the bones of my hand and arm move aside from the metal in excruciating detail.

My back was on fire. I was cold from the loss of blood. I couldn't move or find any position that didn't make things worse. This continued for what seemed an eternity.  The other arm was pulled and set. They lifted me up dropping the crossbar into place with a thud. The cold metal ripping through my feet caused a wave of nausea that passed through my entire body.

When it came to pain, the Romans were skilled.

At some point the level of agony started to lack focus, except for an occasional spike from my hands, or feet or back. Worse, the position of the cross left me unable to breathe. I had to pull on the spikes of my hands and push on the spikes of my feet, raising up to take in a mouthful of air, then collapse back down in a whirlwind of unbearable agony. Every time feels like it will be the last. I could feel the world getting smaller. The end was very near.

The pain was surprising in its intensity and complexity. There was no escaping it, only a futile and continuing effort to try to find any sort of relief. But that wasn't the worst part.

The worst part was the real reason I was here. This wasn't just an ill-timed and unjust execution. The worst part was the cup I was about to drink.

Imagine this.

From the beginning of time, God takes the sin of humankind and places it in a cup without ending or limit. Within the cup, the offenses rest: the rape of the innocent; the theft of a neighbor; the evil thought that passes in a moment; the selfish day spent wasting time; the murder of a wife; the oppression of an entire people; the unwanted infant discarded and left to die.

And still they come: the covering lie; the adulterous secret; the fraud of a stranger; the evil word spoken to wound; the abuse of a child; the girl selling herself for money; the worship of Moloch demanding children for the fire; the random act of destruction; arson destroying a home.

And even again: the foul taste of cowardice; the torture of a prisoner; the delight of a serial killer anticipating the next victim; the petty comment; the husband left for another; the anger that strikes out at a child; the greedy manipulation of harvest; leaving people to starve; the unending litany of the vile; the queue of the actions of the damned; the seemingly unbroken and unending line of evil thought, evil action, evil consequence...

All put into the cup of God's awareness and judgment. The cloying taste of that draught would choke all of humanity forever. It was a cup filled with the smell of death and fear and lust, the taste of blood and horror and cruelty, with all the vomit-filled evil the world had ever known. It was a cup prepared for me. Struggling to breathe, struggling to live a bit longer, it was the cup of God's judgment. It was the inescapable truth of His holy power and wrath.

I had to drink it.

I had to drink it all.

I had to bear within myself the darkness and rightful punishment for every ill-intended thought or action. I had to feel His pleasure and presence taken from me as the price was paid. The physical agony was nothing compared to the agony of my soul. Standing proxy for the evil of every man was a desolation of heart, and there was no escape from it. I had to drink it all.

When my task was complete and the moment was finally over, it was blessed relief to feel the favor and love of my God again. The weight of the moment passed and with trembling I surrendered to the extremis of physical limits I had carried this day. 

It was finished. I was judged. I was beaten and mocked and punished. I suffered the ignominy of the Romans, even bore the anger of God as a substitution for others. I submitted to humiliation and torture and horror and pain beyond the limits of pain.  I drank the cup of His wrath. Death came to close my eyes.

I was sifted.

For you.

 
"As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love. If you obey my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have obeyed my Father's commands and remain in His love. I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete. My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you.

Greater love has no one than this, that He lay down his life for his friends" (John 15:9-13).

Hello Surgeons!

Hope you are doing well... and we're looking forward to a great weekend as a community.

We're finishing up our series Vanity Fair, with a message called The Recipe.  Special music is Some Nights by FUN.

Next week is Easter!  So get ready... it's a time of year when folks look around for a church service to attend and we have a wonderful time planned for Resurrection Day.

Next Saturday will be our Men's Breakfast at 8am, hosted by Terry Forrester, it will be a great morning.

Please remember our team in El Salvador, pray for their safety and for God to do amazing things.

After Easter, we'll be launching our Strapped series, talking about money and how to make it a positive part of God's plan for us.

Be warned, the props will be coming fast and heavy this Sunday, so hang onto your hats!
~The Surge

Beware the ides of March!

My mom (and Shakespeare) used to wake me up as a teenager by turning on all the lights (at a VERY early morning hour) and yelling at the top of her lungs, "BEWARE THE IDES OF MARCH!"

This will be a generational thing as Karen and I will continue this time honored practice with Evangeline.

I love Springtime - if only because it gets me closer to my beloved Summer - the clear winner in "best time of the year."  In the Spring, the earth remembers life again and green rules the day.

And there's basketball.  Gentlemen, start your brackets!

Remember, there's a simple rule if you have two teams to choose from you've never seen or heard about.  Don't just go by the rankings, there will always be Cinderella teams in the Dance.  Prepare to choose the team with the more powerful mascot.

Example:

In the East, we have Illinois (seeded 7) vs. Colorado (seeded 10)

Colorado's mascot is the Buffalo.  Buffalo (technically Bison) are strong, resilient, dangerous when angered and can run without stopping for more than 24 hours.  Not to mention virile, there were 300 million of these puppies in the Plains States before we hunted them to extinction.

You know what Buffalo are as well as tough and implacable foes?

Delicious!  They are delicious.

Yes, they fed the Native Americans for hundreds of years as they worked their way into boiled, jerked, salted and sauteed buffalo goodness.

Illinois knows this well, as the Fighting Illini (while separating themselves from their traditional Indian / Buffalo feasting mascot and symbol, Chief Illiniwek...) are still sporting the upper hand here, with mounts, firearms, charcoal, dry rub and bar-b-q sauce.

I understand the reason many schools are moving away from Native American imagery in their mascots and school logos. 

But even the retirement of honored Illiniwek can't save the Buffaloes from their buffet of doom.

You watch, the Fighting Illini will bring the heat... and will use that heat to cook up a tasty side of Colorado stick to your rib dance goodness.

On a semi-serious note... why do we love the Dance?  I think there are a few reasons:

- It is surprising.  Who's going to win?  With the turbulence the top ten has experienced this year, it could be any one of a dozen teams.  No one is a safe bet... and it is fun to not know the outcome.

- An underdog always rises.  And how can you NOT secretly cheer for the 15th seed that knocked off a number 1, 3 and 5 seed on their way to the Final Four?  It speaks about hope... and our cherished belief that the little guy can do well.

- The mix of athletes is refreshing.  Except for maybe Kentucky, you have a lot of collegiate players that won't go on to the NBA... so this is it.  The kid who is talented, but who ultimately will make his career and mark in another field... will play his very heart out for his team mates and his school.  That level of passion is inspiring.

- We remember our roots.  Whether we went to college or not, we love our home teams don't we?  They ground us in the memory of our family and youth and we want to see the people representing where we grew up do well.

All in all, these are good things.  Life, hope, struggle, dreaming, hard work and success against the odds.  It's the kind of thing that brings out the best of our interaction with life.

So breathe the Dance in deeply... and take a moment to reflect where God would lead you next.  

He may have a bracket and path to your Atlanta that is surprising to everyone tuning in to watch.